You almost cried,actually you teared a lil bit, when saying ..'i tk sabar nk kawin ngan you..'.I feel you:). Deep in my heart said, you are the one.=)

With ♥ 10:32 PM

Suddenly i fElt like writting back.
The last enrty was in 2010.and i moved to tumblr. Bt nw im back.
It has been three years plus im together with him.
Alot of changes here and there.
He nw no longer rides a bike,due to the incident and on my on own wish.
Hes a smoke free nw.no longer smoke.
Thank u:).
i couldnt ask for more.Those sacrifisation shows.
How much he loves me.
Till one day, i really see hw much i meant for him
it was tat day, i waited for him.I feel it was so long eventhough it was a couple of minutes,
Maybe it was due to the anger he stopped for the salesman when i have multiple times reminded him nt to.
I lost my coolness and threw my tantrum over the smses.
He gt fed up and blew up too.
He passed me the ipad and with that angry voice he said.."u badly wants to go back right.. Nw go!"
Wah!I know i shouldnt follow the flow, bt i did.
i grab the ipad and walked away.
i think i did that for two reasons.
Frst,i was embarassed he did tat in public n two, i was in the angry mood thus i cant control myself.
I choosed to walk home instead of taking the shuttle bus, coz walking will ease me.
he called. I reject for 7 times.
The 8th, i picked up n he shouted asking me where am i.
I push the reject button.
The 9th.he called n shouted where am i, and stop where ever i am.
I followed the intruction.
He was furious. Never seen him in tat way before.
He gt fed up and blew off.
I push him the ipad n walked away
He pull me back n force me to follow him back to the mall. I followed.
It was really hurt. Least did i know, he was hurt too.
We walked silently,.
He came closer to me, hugged and said sorry.
'i didnt mean to say and do that to u,im really sorry..'

He told me, once i walked away with the ipad..
He actually find me.
He ran to the shuttle bus which was abt to leave,,
He ran up to the bus and told the driver to hold on while he look for me in the bus.
Bt to no avail,he went dwn the bus.
He cant find me.

Never i know,he did ran up the bus to look for me.
and never did i know he will do that for me.

How i wish he would know hw much i love him.
I love you.

With ♥ 12:00 AM

Dont look at me into my eyes or stare at me.
I will feel insecure.
Yes,Im that insecure.
So dont.
LOOK AT ME.

With ♥ 3:13 PM

I made the mark on Feburary 1st
Between me and you, you can call it birth
The beginning of our universe
remind me of Alicia Keys first
I'm falling for you
I wish I had an opportunity to not do
What I did to hurt you
And now I'm here livin' with regrets
I know that it was my fault
I know that I got caught
So please dont loose your thoughts
Me lovin' you and you lovin' me
I'm on the highway swurvin'
I ain't drunk but I'm about to hit the curb
Lookin' at the calendar gettin' nervous Just a few more days till the first

Chorus:
So this the day it all began
One place that it came together
More than a ring or a tattoo
It's your birthmark that reminds me of you
So let's get on a airplane
Go back to where we began
To that point which is days apart
That's stamped right next to your heart
To your heart
To your heart
To your heart (To your heart) (X3)
(Your heart) (X3)

Get the calendar, go to August 3rd
First words today, we had our first words
First arguement got to let it go
Cuz it could possibly affect what our future holds
Flipping pages now I'm famous
Thinking back I ain't seen you in ages
Wishin' that I could have made it less painless
Brings me back, right back to the same mess

I know that it was my fault
I know that I got caught
So please dont loose your thoughts
Me lovin' you and you lovin' me
I'm on the highway swurvin'
I ain't drunk but I'm about to hit the curb
Lookin' at the calendar gettin' nervous
Just a few more days till the first

Chorus:
So this the day it all began
One place that it came together
More than a ring or a tattoo
It's your birthmark that reminds me of you
So let's get on a airplane
Go back to where we began
To that point which is days apart
That's stamped right next to your heart
To your heart
To your heart
To your heart (To your heart) (X3)
(Your heart) (X3)


January, Febuary, March, April, May
June, July, August is just another day
September, October, November tryin' to find a way
And December the month my calendar defeat again
If only we could go
To that place where me and you know
There's no fake, front, cheat or even lyin'
The time has come where we stand face to face

Chorus:
This the day it all began
One place that it came together
More than a ring or a tattoo
It's your birthmark that reminds me of you
So let's get on a airplane
Go back to where we began
To that point which is days apart
That's stamped right next to your heart
To your heart (X3)
That's stamped right right next to your heart
To your heart
To your heart
To your heart (To your heart)(X3)
That's stamped right next to your heart



It fits

With ♥ 10:29 AM

When both egos strike..Noone who wants to admit defeat.Its rare,but it happened.Its when love wants to do things on his while me,wants the things to do my way.Trust me,its ugly.And theres when such incident like bruise on the hands(bt luckily i didnt had one before).He was harsh so do i.Told u,no one want to admit defeat.

I raised my voice to him to just leave me there,he went off bt came back again to persuade me to follow him.Im so angry that i do not even look at his face when im talking.I walked the opposite side,he caught my hands and bring back to him.it hurts but because of anger,i barely felt the pain.I hold back my tears.telling myself,i must win this war.told u,ego!

We landed at one of the place,and i asked him wit tat harsh voice.surprisingly,he answered with a normal voice and said 'nothing'.Anger level rise up.More questions were thrown up. And the real answers were heard.This time,i really cant hold back the tears,nope.it doesnt hurt at all,it touched me.

.....'i nk kenal kan you ngan makcik2 i...'( i wanna introduce you to my aunties).

Shit u!u cud have told me earlier!


So yeah,end up we met up the aunties.bt still,i dont know who is who.lolz.

So incase in anyone is still in the blur mode..
The cause of the argumeny was becausr me being scarry-shy cat who doesnt want to go in to his aunty's house.

Gah!paisey waaattttt!!!!

But im thankful,they are very welcoming:).i likee:):):).

With ♥ 12:14 AM